I know it’s been a while but this absolutely deserved a blog post. One of my biggest projects to date that I’m so incredibly proud of it. I was absolutely honored to be chosen with a small group of amazing ladies for a special project by Fabric Anthropology. An amazing designer Kristi of George and Ginger Pattern Company has been showing her incredible designs at different fashion weeks around the world. Her and Fabric Anthropology came together to create some stunning prints for her LA Fashion Week Runway show. She absolutely crushed it with some of the most amazing designs. Now here is where I come in. They were amazing and decided to share the opportunity for the fabric community to be able to have these prints as well!
So Fabric Anthropology picked a few of us to sew up and display the fabrics in an over the top dream world type fashion. I’ve loved planning over the top unique photoshoots since back when film was still a thing, so being picked to be part of this project I was absolutely over the moon. It was literally everything I love (sewing and photography) wrapped up into one. I had the grandest plans and was ready to take on the world and feed a creative side of myself that I don’t get to often.
Well- I got pregnant with our third child early on in the project and something just kind of flipped for me. I’m already an anxious person who tends to doubt myself and whether I’m good enough, but this pregnancy just amplified that. I started to question all my ideas, my abilities, and if I belonged or could even hold a candle to all these amazing women participating. On top of anxiety- add in being extra tired, some physical health issues, and taking care of my two crazy boys. So I kept pushing the project to the back burner, all the while my belly was growing bigger causing that much more stress wondering if my original plan would even work because of my changing body. As the clock started winding down I finally made the decision just to go with my original idea, get it done, and if it was horrible at least I tried and it would be done. After a week or so of stressful sewing, tears, doubt, makeup tests, photoshoot falling through, stress, and more sewing and I was finally heading to the photo shoot.
After my first shoot date fell through I reached out to an old photography friend from high school, Ron Hope of Ron Hope Photography, who I used to shoot with long ago and thank goodness he was willing to help me. I usually do all my own photography but my gear wasn’t really set up for this type of work. The location I choose had a small hike to it which ended up being a good thing (except for my hair) because something happened on that hike. I suddenly felt that part of me come alive again. The part that thrives off creativity. Being in nature, no kids around, solely focused on these two loves of mine (sewing and photography) coming together made me feel more like Michelle than I had in a very long time. I wasn’t just a mom, a 20 week in pain pregnant lady, a wife… I was me. The artist. The photographer. The sewist. Most of all, I was proud of myself. I pushed through all my doubts to make this happen. To bring my vision to life. While not everything was perfect and I continued, scratch that, continue to have what-ifs. I really love what I was able to bring to life and I hope you do too. While I love being a mom, this project really reminded me that I have to feed that part of me more often. It’s my opportunity to create and be something more than just a mom.
I’m so incredibly grateful for this challenge and opportunity. It’s been amazing watching this collection come together. Watching these amazing women reach within themselves, past insecurities to create these amazing unique pieces that still managed to come together as one cohesive collection. I hope you all enjoy it as much as we do and it inspires some of you to dig into those projects that have you doubting yourselves and to push past them.
Thank you all for taking the time and I hope I can get back to keeping up with this blog! If you are interested in picking up some of this amazing fabric head over to Fabric Anthropology from 10/14 to 10/21 so hurry and grab it while you can. I used Fierce Chiffon for my skirt about 10 yards I think gathered with basting stitches and brushed poly Fight for my bodice. I want to give another special thanks to Ron Hope for his incredible photography work helping capture my vision, to Melody of Fabric Anthropology for always believing in us, and my amazing friends who helped push me through my anxiety.